*please note that this is written under the influence of pain meds.*
Well, I ride my bike in Tokyo a lot. Sometimes hours a day. I follow the road rules as much as I can and I keep my eye on all the other vehicles and pedestrians so I can travel safely. I watch people do annoying things all the time. I always make sure to steer clear.
Today I am biking along the left side, as cars do, and there is an older lady riding towards Me, the opposite direction in the middle, slightly left side, of the road. I get over as far as I can to the left to give her space. Then about a meter away she suddenly vears to her right to collide with my bike head on! I only managed to yell “Why!!!!” in Japanese before she slams into us. Her heavier bike stops short and my bike jolts and falls to the ground.
Firstly I look back at my daughter who is safely strapped in. She says, I’m ok, I’m ok, right away without Me even asking. Some neighborly people come over and haul my bike up. Once I get up, I realize my knee ain’t quite right. It doesn’t feel particularly broken, cause I know how that feels, but it’s looking a funny shape and basically said, nope, I ain’t moving.
That’s how I got a trip in an ambulance. A few X-rays later and I’m out again with some nifty painkillers. Not broken. Thank God.
I’ll never know why that woman swerved to hit us. It was a mistake. I do hope she’ll be more careful in the future and perhaps consider riding on the correct side of the road. She was kind of an odd duck. The cops agreed that she was a strange person. I prefer to have nothing more to do with her.
Anyway, I get to hobble around in pain for a while. Dr. said I can use it normally.
So sometimes even when we try to do everything right, shit happens.
And then I get to put my feet up for the rest of the day and get served and have an excuse to be whiny. Works for Me!!!
Pretty much as long as my daughter was safe, I was relieved.
Take care out there! Which only works to a point….the point where shit happens. Then it’s a matter of riding it out. Excuse the pun.
*Strange as it may seem, I rarely blog because I wonder if it would be interesting or useful for anyone. I’m also quite a random freelancer, so the idea of blogging on schedule is probably a nice one that I’ll fail at quickly. *
Anyway, a bunch of circumstances led Me and my daughter to be cast in a commercial. Funny how these things happen without any intention of mine. It was hard work. Don’t underestimate how hard movies are to make. This time was also a three day, location shoot. Not exactly the easiest, but definitely the most fun. We were blessed with the opportunity to stay in a great ski resort hotel in Niigata and to work on the top of a beautiful mountain.
Perhaps the most challenging part was my own feelings. It was very difficult to separate myself from my daughter. Whether she collaborated, or refused, felt like my responsibility. 5 year olds don’t care if they have a job to do, or if they are getting paid. They want to do something or they don’t. It was a psychological test of my relationship with her and my discipline. When the clock was ticking and the production costs were climbing, it was hard to allow her space to come to terms with the job she needed to do. At one point she actually said “you’re driving me crazy!” when she was trying to make a snow man and we kept asking her to smile. For her, when she is creating, she is quite serious by nature. At that moment I realized that I was getting all caught up in my own fears. Fear that I was a bad parent. Fear that my daughter is not disciplined. Fear that many people will be inconvenienced and it would be my fault. I awoke. I backed away. I breathed. I released my guilt. I let the situation unfold and eventually she did smile beautifully and they got the shot. And of course I find out afterwards that she did amazing for 5 years old and everyone was impressed. All of those fears were mine and mine alone.
Well, the job was done and overall we had an amazing experience. I’m overly tired, I have a few blisters, a few bumps and great memories too. I learned about myself and about my daughter. The staff were wonderful, every single one of them. They showed so much affection for my daughter and she obviously felt very relaxed and happy with everyone. I wish them all happiness.
*I find it quite mysterious that I feel like blogging right now. Perhaps I’m delirious. *
Mostly I’m very excited to see the final 30 second commercial that we helped to create. It will capture my 5 year old daughter in her best moments in very high res video and I’ll cherish it forever. I’m grateful for this gift.
Drinking red wine out of the bottle on a bus headed for Tokyo, after two long days,
Ever done a lot of work on something and the result was completely different than you expected?
I’ve been shifting my paradigm about Abundance and I thought the whole time I was talking about money.
The more I do, the more the relationships in my life are changing. And I mean drastically. My relationships look like the crumbs in the bottom of my purse with all the other stuff swimming around in the abyss.
I’m pretty surprised. It’s a big, big mess.
I’m assuming that this means it will be put back together in a whole new, and Abundant way.
And perhaps, out of that my financial abundance will also spring.